It's about time I actually start one of these blogs and stick with it. I've had over five blogs already, all which I ended up deleting. So in 29 days I will be embarking on Chapter 3 of life: College.
I guess a back-story would be appropriate for my first post. Well I was raised in the small town of Brockway, Pennsylvania. My school had only about 75 students per grade so I've always known everyone. Back in elementary and early high school I wasn't very popular. I never really tried to make a lot of friends and mostly kept to myself and my best friend Justin. Something hit me around 9th grade and I all of the sudden wanted to be more outgoing and play sports. So I started taking soccer seriously, which I had played since 6th grade, and started trying to make friends with the popular kids. I quickly found the popular kids to be mostly shallow, but a lot more interesting than my boring few friend life. So I started sitting at their lunch tables, and eventually settled in with the other soccer players. A few of them over the next few years would become my best friends along with a girl I at one point liked.
Then the summer before my senior year came around. I set off to this week long... thing... called RYLA. I had no idea what to expect, but when I got there I met about 100 new people. Over that week at Rotary Youth Leadership Awards, I made some of the best friends I had ever made. These people helped me realize what real friends were like, and those friends back at my high school (except for a few) weren't really my friends at all. After two more summer experiences at Pennsylvania Free Enterprise Week and the Art Institute's Summer Studio, I found a new me. Every experience of meeting new people I was 100% okay with just being myself and not letting who I was in the past hold me back.
My senior year was rough and confusing. I pushed away even further from the people that I had once thought of as friends and become close to my real friends. I felt like at my school, I couldn't be the fun loving, outgoing person I really am, because there were so many people that saw me differently. If I acted like anything that they didn't expect, they thought I was being a poser and just trying to impress them. Not wanting to inflate their egos any more, I laid low for the most part the rest of the year. Only really caring what my closer friends thought and hanging out with just them. A huge shock came to me in the spring when my one passion was pulled from under my feet. I had been a star actor for the last three years. Playing leads in five performances up until this point, and I was ready for my last performance to be my biggest. It turned out I only got a role as a supporting lead. At the time I had to step back and realize that it's just a show, even if it was my only outlet that people recognized me as being good at, I just brushed it off like it didn't matter.
That brings me to where I am today. Finally done with my senior year that seemed like it took forever and ready to move onto college. I think having a whole new surrounding with all new people will be a great thing. Nobody to judge me and make assumptions based on what they expect me to be like, just new people to meet and new impressions to make.
Thats all for now.
Always real,
CJ Inzana
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