Death and All His Friends

"Love is stronger than death; Even though it can't stop death from happening, but no matter how hard death tries it can't separate people from love. It can't take away our memories either. In the end, life is stronger than death."

Death has been on my mind, and the people around me, a lot lately. Next month will be a year since Shane died and it's really hitting me that he's gone. Every time I think about it, all I can think about how much of a great guy he was and that he was one of the few people that were genuinely my friend in high school.

I think death of loved ones really puts things into perspective for us. I remember talking to Mike, Derrick, and Rakvin after going to the viewing and really thinking about what it would be like if I died. What would people think? Would people care? Who would care? Would there be those girls crying that never even knew me? What happens to me?

I have trouble even thinking about what happens when you die. I'd like to think there is a heaven where you go to live afterwards, but even the bible says your soul is the only thing that goes. Can my soul even think? I ask myself that a lot and try to image what death is like. I always get the same heavy feeling in my chest while I try to wrap my mind around the reality of death.

One thing that always makes me feel better is the memories I have of loved ones that died and those memories I see others having of their loved ones. Even if I can't "think" as my soul, and won't even know that they are thinking about it. Isn't the point in life to leave impressions on people, change their lives in some way, so that when your gone you've left your mark; you've done something worth living for.

In the case of Shane, he definitely had a purpose in life. He got people through the roughest things and was ALWAYS there to talk to without judging. I think for all of us that had the privilege of knowing him, he gave us someone to live towards. I know I try my hardest to be as friendly and compassionate as he was, especially recently. If anything, thats what he left me; a goal to live towards.

I don't know if any of this made any sense, but I really felt like writing about this. Even if you didn't know Shane, maybe you have someone in your life that has passed away. I hope this helps you put things into perspective if you haven't already.